Head and Heart (Sunday ramblings)


 “The instinct for beauty and the instinct of truth are similar. They are like our floating collarbones that are connected by the awakening of our heart. The heart brings them together, relieving them from separation.” Mikael Jibril

My thirst for knowledge and information can seem insatiable at times. Whether I am reading ancient texts, current blogs, listening to the tenth podcast of the day, reading scientific literature (admittedly my least favorite), my mind is always swimming in information. There is a side of me that wants to hole up in a library for the rest of my life so great is my desire to know more. 
What is missing from this drive to consume more and more information is integration, and a conscious effort to balance the mental energy with heart energy. For this is where true integration occurs. 

In the age of information I know I am not alone in this thirst to know and never has it been easier to consume information. Couple that with a culture that prizes intellect over intuition, our ego's drive to hold knowledge as power is heightened. Lately, as I cultivate my heart space and quiet my mind more, through meditation and ritual, I am humbled by how much I don't know and by how much wisdom is missing when I dwell in a hyper intellectual space. In debate for instance, when two individuals are sharing ideas, the format is one of competition. While there is nothing inherently wrong with this, I find this style of communication restrictive. When we are in debate we are on the defense, forming our counter argument in our minds as the other presents their argument, and by doing so we are cutting ourselves off from deep listening. There is a reciprocity that occurs when we are not trying to be right. When we are truly living each moment with intention from our heart space. This is the space that I am cultivating right now. It takes an immense of amount of awareness and is very much a practice. My mercury is in Gemini in my first house. My mental energy is very strong. But my North Node is in Leo in my 5th house and my dharma in this lifetime is embodying heart energy in a bold, empowered and sovereign way. 

"Realities are layer cakes and only multidimensional models will describe anything real." Satya of Alcyone 

From my understanding, the truth of who we are as a species has been suppressed intentionally for millennia. Truthfully, I find it much easier to believe information that is said to come from 9th dimensional Pleadian beings than I do some of the age old accepted Newtonian ideas about our species and our Earth. But who I am to say what is real? I am constantly catching myself wanting to be right and noticing my own agenda as I complain about larger agendas at play. I am merely another human occupying this third dimensional reality seeing things through the lens of my own perceptions and beliefs. The more I hold that awareness however, and let go of attachment to identity and beliefs, the more expansive I feel. 
I want to walk on this Earth in an authentic and embodied way and bring my medicine where it is needed. 
Every day is a gift and nothing is promised. 
May I hold this awareness in humble reverence now and forever. 
May we all awaken to the light of our own true nature
In Divine Timing
So May it Be.







 



Comments

  1. Kaline8 February 2021 at 16:57

    I love this, Selene. Moving into a higher consciousness is not an intellectual process. I see your Light. 💥❤

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  2. Marie12 February 2021 at 13:53

    When I was in India I was talking with one of the Indian men who worked at the ashram. I'd always held him in high regard as he was very wise. After listening to my busy mind prattling on about I don't remember what, pointing out all the differing views in what I thought was an important analytical process. (that could have no way to be solved) He looked at me with kind eyes and said, "Why all this unnecessary thinking?" I remember those words to this day... my mind can be insatiable. You got it Kaline. Selene, you ARE a bright light!

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    1. Marie12 February 2021 at 14:03

      Selene, I don't see an edit button here so I'd like to add... It was a bit of a gut punch but something in it had value for me. I am in no way suggesting your search and quest for knowledge is misguided. Not at all! You have a very good understanding of what and how you are going about the process of integration. I was sharing this to agree that I understand the mind's appetite. Love to you.

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