Thank You


"Enjoy that which you create. Wonder at your ability to draw and generate all experiences, whether you label them positive or negative." 9D Pleiadian Collective



 Last week I wrote a post about my long, dysfunctional relationship with alcohol and my journey to sobriety. Because of the subject matter, I wanted it to reach a larger audience than my blogs usually reach. The online sober community was a huge reason for my success in leaving booze behind, and I was hoping that my experience would inspire someone. An average of six people read my blogs each week. (I LOVE YOU ALL THANK YOU!) I reached out to family last week and asked them to share my recent blog on their Facebook pages. I just checked to see how many people have read that post and it is well over 300. WOW!  THAT is the power of social media. Incredible. 

I bought myself flowers last week to celebrate my soberversary and they are currently on my kitchen table, a bright and beautiful reminder of the overall vitality that I feel being sober. My decision to delete my social media accounts owned by the Facebook empire also came down to my addictive behavior and the compulsive tendencies I had around engaging with them. Data harvesting, algorithmic control of content and advertising are all things that factored into my decision to stop. I really enjoy the peaceful feeling that I have being away from the constant stimulation of a social media feed. But, I do miss the potential reach I had when it comes to something like my blog. The thrill of seeing that hundreds of people viewed my story is intoxicating. I am not ready yet to dip my toes into that hive mind right now, but I am humbled and grateful that my family was willing to share my story with so many others. My priority right now is gathering all aspects of myself into the fold of my being and aligning with my own truth and frequency with very limited exposure to outside interference. It's a fresh journey for me, one that my soul guided me to and I am committed to the practice of becoming myself. I am also bringing a lot of awareness to my very human tendency of labeling things as right or wrong good or bad and practicing observing without judgement. It's a forever practice, and one I am really just finding my sea legs with, as I navigate the choppy waters of the collective consciousness and my place in it right now. 


"The stilling of the heart is the true alchemy." ----Inayat Khan

So off I go into the intentional practice of creating more stillness in my life. I laugh at my mind's tendency to want to define what that stillness means, especially while living with a precocious, almost 8 year old boy (testosterone y'all...it's really something). But I am in awe every day at what I am creating. Sobriety was the seed that sowed all that is transpiring now in my life and I am so profoundly grateful for it. Thank you to all who read my writing and to all who enrich my life just by knowing you. I'm going to leave you with some word's from the iconic Yoko herself: a reminder that when we say "yes" to more things in our life, the doors of possibility open wide. 

"Say yes
Say yes in your own language
Write yes
Write yes in your own language
Share it with the world.
Ask the world to do the same
Say yes with me
Say yes to eternal peace
Say yes to equality
Say yes to a green world
Say yes to a healthy world
Say yes to a beautiful universe we will create.
Keep saying yes to one peaceful and sustainable future."
Yoko Ono

Comments

  1. Marie16 March 2021 at 10:12

    YES! Beautiful Yoko Ono quote and I"m so happy your beautiful blog came to inspire so many people! My feeling has always been that when the time is right, your writing will inspire thousands. Seriously.

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  2. Kaline20 March 2021 at 15:42

    ❤❤

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